Undone

Sometimes weeks go by and I don't check in here at all. Other times, I will spend several hours reading through old posts and comments, studying photographs, piecing together the story of the last few years of my life. I am amazed by how much the kids have grown over the course of my time writing here. Luke and Jaz have changed from round-faced preschoolers into lanky second-graders. Zeb has been transformed from my delicious baby into the funny little (four-year-old!) guy that he is today. And Leo was conceived and birthed and has now grown big enough to where he is no longer simply a baby in the chaos, but the running, tumbling, talking, cause of much chaos (in a most fabulous way, most of the time)!

I am so grateful to those of you--and there have been many--who have continued to write to me and encourage me, and send love, despite my long, unexplained absence and my lack of response. It was never my intent to abandon the blog all together, and I apologize for not being more forthcoming about my status.

Our family has endured a very difficult autumn and is now taking on a new form. Lena and I have been living apart for a few months, and the kids began dividing their time between two homes in November. I am not currently planning on writing about the experience of separation-- nor more generally about my marriage--in this space, but I do hope to return to blogging about parenting, in one way or another.

I assure you that all of us are physically well, that Lena and I are striving to be our most gracious and best selves as we navigate this painful, emotional transition, and that our children remain very, very loved.